Entah

Engga kepikir aja bakal jadi sesusah itu
Bakal jadi seribet dan serumit itu
Iyalah, orang yang biasanya mikir simple mana kebayang
Apalagi gampang over excited
Payah emang...

Malem-malem, iseng buka hp.
Mbaca, mbaca, mbaca mulu.
Oh.
Diem.
Seneng.
Liat yang lain.
Kosong.

'Yaudah si'
Naruh hp.
Buka laptop.
Udah jam 1.
Matiin lampu, tidur.
Gabisa tidur.
Mikir
Mikir
Mikir
Mikir
Mikir
Mikir terus sampe capek mikirnya
Mikir (lagi)
Liat jam.
'Gila udah jam 3'
Gitu masih mikir
'Terusin aja'
'Bakal nambah parah ga ya'
Sampe sumpek sendiri
Sampe capek
Nyerah...

" You know, there will be a day when you're so tired with the same routine everyday, you feel stuck and you feel like everything is fucked up.When you feel like nobody can understand ;including you; what you feel and you just don't have any idea how to tell them what's happen with yourself. And you'll wish you can escape from all these things, even just for awhile, drive your car and go to the beach just to feel fresh and free. Now, I wish i could drive a car and go to a beach, alone. And I wish i could understand this feeling so i could tell someone what's wrong with me, to make me feel better :"{ "

- Quoting from here